So deep that it didnt even bleed

And catch me

Off guard, red handed now

Far from lonely

Asleep, I still see you lying next to me

So deep that it didnt even bleed

And catch me, I...

Thursday, December 22, 2005

All i see is me. Alone standin in the middle of nowhere. Like a lost child. Searching for her family. No one cares. Like a broken mirror. All she's left with is a piece of her to find the other pieces of her. She's still searching for that little pieces. All the little pieces falling, shatter.Shards of her, too sharp to put back together. Too small to matter, but big enough to cut me into so many little pieces. It hurts so much. She screams but no one could hear her. She tried to hide it away with her imperfect smile. Looking into the mirror, a little sheltered girl is all she sees. All alone at night, sitting on her bed. Looking at her mom's pic. She hopes her mom can hear her. All she heard was her own voice talking. She can never bring her back. No one to hug her, kiss her good night, comb her hair..etc. The good ol' memories of she and her mom is her lullaby. She misses her so much, she looked thru the whole dictionary.. Nothing could explains how she feels inside. No christmas for her. Every year. It's the same. Everyday she goes on with the sharp little pieces of a broken mirror cut into her.

5:02 PM

Monday, October 17, 2005

Moved to cali. Transfered school. Ughh!! I still luving eu. Eu know who eu are. I luv eu so much. Our love was like Romeo & Juliet's, it ended tragically. Even tho there's someone else in my heart now, i still love eu and care for eu. Days may past. But memories last. Eu'll never find another me sweetie.

6:20 PM

Friday, September 23, 2005

Ooh tiger..u are so precious...i so can't get over u forever...i saw tiger in my dreams...:'( it hurts me alot....i just want it to be real but it was just a dream.. he told me that he's gonna be alright and told me to take care of myself and his sister too..he told me not to worry....he told me not to cry and that he'll be okie..he's on his way to wherever he's goin..and then he had to go...i cried....and cried....and when i opened my eyes, i was really crying....and i could feel his presence in my room...that smell of him that i'll alwaes remember... :'( and i swear to god i saw his shadow or something in his room @ his house.. :( why does god take u away from me...:( i just couldnt live without u..all those laughters and tears we had together....i could still remember all those time we had together......if only i could turn back time and save u in time..:(

7:16 AM

Monday, September 19, 2005

R.I.P Micheal V. Morries

a.k.a

Tiger

12.20.88-09.18.05

I dont really feel like creating a post...:( i can't believe i had lost 2 of my closest frens in a year...*sobs* it's your sis who called me crying on the phone telling me that...tiger was gone....only god knows how i felt when i heard that......................i feel like this world is against me or something....why do u have to take him away from me!!!!!!!! why!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!tiger...i didnt imagined that u would do such things.....i dont blame u tiger...i know......once u ever told me "bleed this love alive"....god i never thought of anything when u said that but i just thought it was strange......i cant believe ur gone so fast.......it's been a long time since we met since u moved to greenwich on the phone we were talking for hours on the 11 of sept..that was the last time i will ever hear your voice... :'( i didnt know.......you sounded really happy talking bout that girl u really like in your school.....i was really happy for u.....for once i thought that everything in your life is in control.....but u never told me......deep inside your not "happy"........i should've asked!!!i should've know!!!!!!!!!this is alll my fault!!!!!!!!!! maybe if i asked u, u'll be alright!!!!! and we can still hangout and kick it like we used to do when u were back here!!!!!!i've known u since like we were toddlers and u were alwaes there for me..i am sorry i put u all throw all of my difficulties on you i didnt know i shouldn't have not done that!....remember when we used to sing "it's been awhile from staind"??? we sang at the top of of our voices.. :( i would list all those fun stuff we did together but i think that it won't have enough space tiger and....i thought u're gonna be a doctor when we get older....i still remember we used to play doctors when we were 3.. :) you're gone now... :( but i know ur in a better place and im glad that all your miseries and depressions are gone...i will go to your funeral tiger..dont worry...i'll be there like i alwaes did :) i wanna see u one last time even if it hurts alot...i admit.....knowing that u are really gone...it really broke my heart now....im gonna cry...... :'(

9:24 AM

Friday, September 16, 2005

The rich boy and gentleman
Why he likes you: Youre girlish charm
and he thinks youre the attractive.
How he shows his affection: He always hugs
you as if he would lose you and buys you
everything and anything you want.
His saying: You are a beautiful gem
and Im glad you wanted to be mine.
What is a normal date: Going to the
finest restaurant.
How do you know he loves you: He calls
you just to hear your voice. He knows
somethings wrong before you say anything . He
give you a ring that said I love you and
said love can go on with out saying
What he does when youre sad: Kisses
your forehead and listens to your story.
How does he kiss you: Lets just say
WOW

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7:06 PM

Wednesday, September 14, 2005

Loadsa stuff happened those few days i was away from my computer....Good stuff..Bad stuff u name it....I'm soo down right now even before..I couldnt get to sleep thinking bout that matter....and i dont wanna talk bout it now....Let's see what did i do last weekend..Whey..i went to my highschool's party....it's pretty rad and fun....here's a snap of me, leni and derek..

5:15 AM

Thursday, September 08, 2005

Today i dont know why mickey ignored me and he doesnt talked to me at all..He looked like sort of angry or something....Oh plzzz dont do this to me....Did i do anything wrong??????????Did i said something wrong???????I need an explanations why!!!!! Whatever ppl tell u...that rumours.....they arent true!! u could ask vee, jess or desii!! Im so fucken confused!!!!!!!!

6:34 PM